
This year was the first time I really watched the Tour de France, like followed it. I'm not an expert on cycling strategy, but I was amazed how these guys could ride hundreds of miles doing thousands of feet of climbing day after day for three weeks. That's digging deep. That's a new kind of hard. So obviously when I heard about the the trail running stage race that Fleet Feet was putting on I was down. I couldn't think of a better way to end my 2009 season. It's no Tour, but it would be my toughest event of the season.
This summer I ran two half-marathons, a handful of trail races, and hundreds of miles of training. This was a different animal though. Three races, two days. The first day started with a HILLY three mile time trial, a few hours break and then a five mile mass start trail race. The five miles was not much flatter. The big day came on Sunday though, with an eleven mile trail race that included 2600 feet of climbing. The big challenge was to put myself in a good position to run a good stage, but also be ready for the next one.
John (my coach, more to come on that) told me to take it a little easy the first day. That was hard to do though. I was so jacked at the start of the TT that I took off. There were 15 seconds between each runner, but that didn't stop me from wanting to catch people; and I did. If I saw you, I wanted to catch you and that worked well for the first mile, and then the hills started. Sorry, hills are easy....these were cliffs! I walked up leaning so far forward I had to grab the roots to keep from sliding down to the bottom. My heart rate jacked to 190 and I was just trying to walk. My plan at that point was to walk up the hills, speed up on the flats and try to use gravity on the downhills and catch my breath. I finished stage one in just over 27min. It put me in 21st place overall, and I was happy with that. To recharge, I slammed a Hammer recovery drink and had some potato skins (those things are awesome), found some hot tea to help keep warm and get a little caffeine. Stage two was waiting.
We took off into Devil's Bathtub. The problem with Devil's Bathtub is once you're down in it, you eventually have to climb out. For five miles the muddy, hilly bottom of the bathtub slowly sucked the strength from your legs. Just walking up the hills took your breath away. At this point, I'm just trying to save something for tomorrow, but I'm getting passed, and I hate that. Torn between laying back and keeping my position, I eventually let myself fall into a comfortable pace and save what I could. Climbing the long stairs out of the Bathtub felt good. I made it through day one. After a recovery drink and some stretching I headed home for an ice bath and a solid dinner of Tilapa, quiona, and veggies. I was exhausted, but my nerves started to get the best of me. The anxiety of 11 miles in what I now knew would be pure hell kept me up later than I would have hoped.
Morning came early. Priming my engine with warm brown rice, oat milk, and strawberries, I was ready to go. The legs felt good considering the day before. I credit this to the recovery drinks and the ice bath...mostly the ice bath. They hurt but they're worth it. It was cold again this mourning, which I was thankful. I'm fast in the cold. A crowd of 70+ gathered near the start, and soon we were off. After running my two half-marys I thought I had a good idea of my pacing. I new I should go easy at first and let myself warm up and get in a groove. I also knew that I didn't have to crawl. The problem with trail running (or off road anything really) is that you loose that control. The terrain controls it. Road races have “rolling hills”, trail races have cliffs. Hills that are a few degrees from vertical, covered with gravel and leaves just waiting to take you straight back to the bottom. These monsters will jack your heart rate to its max, and you'll be crawling. You can't pace yourself when that is staring at you. The best you can do is make good time on the flats, and use gravity as your friend on the downhills even-though your quads will be thinking differently.
I fall into a groove, the lead pack has taken off, but I'm still leading a pack of my own. I like hearing people behind me, it's motivating. I hate getting passed. Soon we had spread out, I was guessing it was mile 4 or 5. My watch was off today. I thought instead of worrying about my pace or heart rate, today I would just concentrate on the experience, and take it all in. I was alone for awhile. Hill after hill with no one in front or behind. This is when your mind starts to fuck with you. “Why are you doing this?” “Just take it easy man, you're not gonna win!” This is why I do these races. It's not that I enjoy these moments, they really are as bad as they sound. It's the moments when you're finished and you realize what you were just able to do despite what you thought. At about mile 7 a small group caught up with me and I felt a little better. No words where spoken, but having the companionship of other suffering souls inspired mine. Just four more miles. Running out of the woods we came around to the edge of the lake, across the lake you could see the finish! Now, we just had to run around it. I remember thinking that I'd rather swim across. My knees hurt, my feet felt paddled, and my hips felt as if they had no range of motion. It was pure will at this point. More hills came, one after the other, only to break for ankle deep mud. Was this four miles or forty miles! Fuck! Where the fuck is the fucking finish!
There it was, at the top of another god damn hill, but I was there and I emptied the tank. Every. Last. Drop. I didn't look at the clock, I didn't care. The 2009 season was finished and that was the coolest thing I'd ever done along with my Xterra. The moments directly after these races is weird. You're happy your finished, but you wonder if you could have done better....if you only just....did something, pushed it harder somewhere, took it easier somewhere else. You've been beaten down and it takes some time before you're fully back up. Jenn surprised me at the finish, I heard her yelling as I was coming up the final hill, and maybe the reason I didn't just crawl up it. It's really important to have someone to support you at the end of a race, any race really, but especially a race like this. You need someone to say, “Hey, you did a great job!” I wasn't expecting it, but I'm glad she came, she helped me pick myself back up. Jenn's awesome like that. After a few hours of reflecting, I knew I had done really really well. I left everything out there, nothing left to give, the best I could do. With a combined time of just over three hours for all the events, I placed 30th overall out of 70+ not too bad for a guy who started running a year ago. Bring on 2010!

